I am the toxin

Today I take my son to camp. Later in the month I will take my other 2 children. It has been a tremendous challenge for me to come to grips with:

One source of challenge in their life will be removed while they are on the mountain and we are out of contact. Me.

I haven't gotten on the gospel-side of this yet... that many of the wounds they bear come from my sharp tongue, my ridiculous demands, my desire for life to be the way I think it should be.

O God, heal. Them, and me.